Is it the end of January already?

Well, here it is the end of January already. I have gained weight up to 135 pounds and it seems to be staying with me!! The doctors will be happy!! At least my ribs aren't showing as bad.

My fingers are doing pretty well but my feet go into full sleep when they get too cold. It makes snow skiing pretty difficult! We skiied one day with Adam and it was pretty good. Everything stayed pretty warm but my feet went to sleep. In fact I got up from my office chair the other day and fell flat on my face as my foot went to sleep. OH well, it just makes life more interesting.

Needless to say, I stay wrapped up in a blanket when sitting at home and almost always have a jacket on at the office. We have used alot of fire wood so far this winter trying to keep the den warm. Too cheap to turn up the heat!!

My taste buds are coming back so slowly. Ice cream still does not have an appeal. Nor chocolate! I still like stuff that has liquid. I eat sandwiches with about 11 ounces of water to chase it down!!

Inow have a constant ringing in my ears. It is so silent when it stops. One of the problems with this cancer and the amount of chemo and radiation I had. Maybe part of the reason I can't hear as well.

I have started letting my hair grow back out. It is about a 1/4 inch all over. Some parts are black but I think it will end up white again! And don't think it is coming in any thicker!! But at least if I keep it short, then I don't have to worry about shampooing it every day and combing it! Just have to look to the good in everything! Will try to take a picture showing the length.

I think one of the hardest things about having cancer is that every time I have a ache or runny nose, I think "what if it is back?". I have more tests next week. February 4 is one year ago that I found out that I had throat cancer. More reflects on that when that date gets here.

I am back at work full time. My energy level gets better every day. It's a good thing with tax season rolling around. While life will not be the same as last year, I am sure there will be bumps along the road. But trust in God that all will be ok. Just have to find those silver linings.

Later gang.....

A good day

Yesterday we had a memorial for my Dad who as you know, died from Alzheimer's. It was a wonderful service and I am grateful to First Christian Church for all their efforts. It was good closure for the family.

I have started letting my hair grow out some. I stay cold all the time so thought it might help if I had a little bit of a rug on my scalp! My fingers and especially my feet are still tingly and when I talk too much my mouth gets real dry. But this year has started out so much better than last year. Little did I know what was in store for Lucille and my family. I am certainly looking forward to a better year!

I lost my three pounds this last week, but will continue to eat. My strength gets a little better as does my energy level.

Don't know about ya'll but ready to get into the regular routine. I like the holidays but ready to get back to work and a regular schedule. I have a doctor's appointment this week with my regular doctor. Don't expect anything just a checkup.

Life brings alot of changes and suprises. Some will be good and others will be not so good. But we have to continue to live each day to the fullest. To keep taking a step and continuing to live. People depend on each one of us in one way or another. WE touch peoples lives that we don't even know about. So we have to keep taking those steps each days. We never know when our actions or workds will affect somene in a positive way. This is a great gift from God that we forget about sometimes. I know these past twelve months have taught me about the positive words and support we should do. If not for each and every one of you, I would not be doning this today.

Here's to a great week to walk with God and to do our small part in making a positive influence on someone.

Happy New Year

HAPPY NEW YEAR to everyone.

Since my last posting I have had my port removed and have celebrated a wonderful Christmas and a new beginning of a new year.

Had my port taken out on Dec 23. The doctor had to dig it out as my muscle was in the process of encapsulating it! But other than bruising, everything turned out great. I tried to get the doctors and nurses to let me keep the port, but couldn't have it. Was going to put it on my board of cancer remembered. Was told not to lift anything heavy for 3 weeks. Well I helped lay a sidewalk over new years and kinda exceeded the weight but I think all is ok!

Still have the same ole problems. Only new thing is a ringing in my ears. Today I weight 134 pounds. We'll see if it stays on this week. Ate like a pig over the holidays. Got new clothes that fit for Christmas. Now I really look skinny! LOL

I have alot to be thankful for considering what has happened this past year. I am thankful for all my friends who have supported and prayed for me this past year. I am thankful for all my caregivers for their support and love this past year. I am thankful to God for allowing me some more time on this earth. I intent to make the most of it this year!

My dad passed away on Dec 22 and I consider it a blessing. A memorial will be held this Saturday, Jan 9 at 10:30 am at First Christian Church in Midland. He had alzheimers.

The new year will bring it share of joys, sorrows and problems, but with God's help we can make it through. No new years resolutions, just going to try and live each day to the fullest. May God Bless each of you this day and every day of 2010.